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I'm such a hypocrite. Some of my posts are about how important it is to take every chance that life throws at you. I wrote about how it is better to try and fail than not to try at all. I talked about how you need to live in the moment and never be worried about the future.

And here I am. Scared as hell to take the chance life throws at me. Afraid to try, afraid to fail.
Here I am. Worrying too much about the future. Yeah, so much for living in the moment. I am such a coward.

But the thing is, everyone has those nights where their brains are clouded with the "what if" questions and boy, did it scare the hell out of me. I hate myself for always thinking the worst out of every situation. I can't help it. People keep on disappointing me every time and it's just so hard to trust people. Even sometimes I don't trust my bestfriends and bestfriends are supposed to trust each other. Heck, I don't even trust myself. How am I supposed to trust my heart in the hand of someone? I have no idea.

Honestly, I'm scared. But everyone will have to experience a lot of heartbreaks before they find the one, won't they?