Uni has finally struck again. I thought I had everything figured out, I thought everything was going pretty nicely but no. The pressures got the best of me. I am once again a mess because of the pressures of uni. I know I may kind of sound a little bit overreacting but I always put my education and assignments above anything else and when I think everything is not going the way I planned it, I get stressed. And I don't even have time to enjoy myself by simply reading my favorite books. I don't even have time to my personal service anymore, hell, I don't even have time to take care of my health anymore. And I know it's wrong to some people, but maybe they don't understand why I am doing this. My mind is filled with the list of things I have to do, with all the works that need to be done before tomorrow and that only leaves a small room for anything else. I know what my first priority is and I know I won't get there if I slack off. I know people will say "take a break" "don't push yourself" but I wouldn't be right where I am now if I never pushed myself, would I? I always push myself and I think I count that as a gift. If I want to go far at life, I have to have the will to push, don't I? I have goals and to be honest, I take failing seriously and that is why I keep pushing myself to the point where I have no energy left to push. And in this time like this, another part of me leashes out and begs me to feel everything I have ignored so well before. The stress, the pressures, the tiredness are finally bubbling up and forcing their way out of me and now they're all eating me alive. My body is asking for a break, heck, everything inside of me is asking for a break, for a 8 hours of sleep. In this time like this I feel like I am at my lowest point of life and I have every right to complain, cry and leave. I have every right to leave everything and just enjoy myself alone.


...well maybe I will after I finish this assignment first.