Hell with you're not alone. You are always alone.

I always disagree with the phase "you are not alone". The first time I heard those four words was from Michael Jackson's famous song; you are not alone. I thought that song was good and inspirational. It told people that someone would always be there for you but as I grow older, those 4 words are becoming more and more irrelevant and downright stupid.

The older I get, the more I realize that I am mostly alone in my life. I am alone when I cried myself to sleep. I am alone when my dreams haunt my sleep. I am alone when I sob in the shower. I am alone when I am sad and unhappy. I am alone when my insecurities kill myself. I am alone when I hit the rock bottom. And the sad thing is, I've gotten so used to loneliness that I would rather stay silent when I feel something. I feel things, and I only want to feel it alone--be it sadness, happiness, anger, hatred, or disgust. I feel like, only in my own bubble of loneliness that I can cope with everything.