Happy Birthday, Dearest Dinis.

You forced me to make a blog post about you, and today is your birthday so I thought why not? You deserve to be happy today so if writing this post would make you happier, then here it goes.

Happy 17th birthday, Dinis Dwi Shinta Ramadhani.
I hope you will get everything you want in life and more. I hope your dreams stay higher than the stars, your soul be more beautiful than the blooming flowers in the spring, your heart be wider than the oceans and your future be brighter than the sun.
I hope God will always bless you with nothing but happiness. I hope you'll find the light in the darkness, a boat when you're stuck in the middle of the ocean, a parachute when you're falling and a song when the world gets too ugly. But even better, I hope you could be that light, that boat, that parachute and that song to everyone else around you.

I pray to God that your road will lead you back to me, because I want to grow up together with you. I want to see you on the first day of your job and congratulate you, I want to see the man who manages to steal your heart, I want to be the one who cheers so loud at your wedding party, I want to be the one who takes silly pictures at your wedding party, I want to carry your babies, I want you to carry my babies. I want our children to have play-dates together, I want us to be standing next to each other when its our children's first day at school, I want you to read my own novel, I want to see you with grey hair and wrinkle on your skin, I want us to be rocking that rocking chair together and still be cool.
They say the only constant thing in life is change but I hope you'd be another constant thing in my life and I to you.

But, if fate forces us to never see each other again (God forbid!!!) I hope you'd remember me as the greatest part of your high school life. I hope you'd remember me as someone whom you would run to whenever life got hard. I hope you'd remember me as someone whom you would share your secrets with, as someone whose shoulders are used to be your crying spot, as someone who could deal with your selfishness, your anger, your mood-swing and all your flaws. I hope you'd remember me as someone you used to love...

Whenever you see a picture of us together, I hope you will remember all the memories we've shared and it'd bring your lips to curve a smile and your eyes to light up in happiness. I hope you'd tell our stories to your children and grandchildren because our stories are too epic and beautiful and funny to ever be forgotten.

This is the sixth time that we've spent your birthday together and I hope to spend another birthday with you. I want to be there when you turn 20 or 40 or even 50.

I love you, to the black hole and (hopefully) back.

Happy Birthday.

Water.

Hi!! I've been so busy with school now. Like really really busy. School starts at 7 am and I go home at 7 pm *sighs* I'm literally patting my own shoulder right now. And to make it worse, extra lessons will start this week. YAY just what I really need. Not really. Anyway, have I mentioned that I will be 18 this year? Probably not. So, here I say it. I'll be 18 this year. Eight freaking teen. 1 to the 8. 18. I just can't believe it. I remember spending my 15th bday with my family and later, I'll be spending my 18thh bday. Time really does fly. Like you just sleep and you wake up 5 years later. Someone told me that time is like water. And I didn't understand back then, but now I do. Time can flow as fast as the waterfall when you don't really pay attention to it, but if you pay your attention to the time, if you can't stop looking at the clock and waiting for the time to go fast, then the time will be as still as the water in the lake.