Where did I do wrong

I would never be good enough for anyone else. All my life I've been told that I never put enough effort in everything I do. Ever since I was a kid, the people around me never forgot to tell me, "you don't have any effort", "work harder" and it never stops, even until now. It's like all the efforts I've done just suddenly went unnoticed.

I don't know where I did wrong but I'm so tired of people telling me to put more efforts and whatnot. It seems like I would never be good enough for other people no matter how hard I try to. I am never enough.

Or maybe it really is my fault. Maybe they're right. Maybe I don't try hard enough. Maybe I don't work hard enough. Maybe I need to change.


(Or maybe this girl really has no effort in living anymore)