I've never been this scared and shaken up before. I don't even know what I'm feeling. Scared. Sad. Angry. Mad. Confused. Everything. Never have I cried this long before. It's all eating me alive and no matter how hard I tried to not think about it, it just stays on the back of my mind and forces me to think about all the possibilities that could happen to me. I wonder how many tears I'm going to waste in these couple of days.

I'm scared. God, I'm terrified.