Being so disgusted and hateful with yourself, both physically and psychologically, is definitely.... stressful.

Your subconsciousness will constantly whisper things like "why are you like that", "why do you have to be like that?", "why can't you be better like them?", "why are you such a loser?"

And it gets so tiring, like everything you do is never enough, not for other people, but it's simply not enough for your own self. It's always yourself that doubts you so much, it's always yourself that gives you criticism and lets you down. It's always yourself that never be satisfied.

It's always myself that hates me the most.