Universe

And I tell the universe about my dreams and hopes and plans, praying that the universe will not play any games with me and grant me everything I have ever wished for.

But the universe laughs in return and without me knowing anything, the universe has already conspired to make everything turn upside down.

All my hopes and dreams: gone, like ashes being blown away by the unforgiving night's wind. Like autumn leave being stepped on by people over and over again.


But the universe laughs in return and says, "oh, darling girl, you're strong enough to go this far and you'll go way beyond your dreams and hopes and everything will make sense someday and you'll thank the universe for all the troubles in life"

So I remind myself that I am more than just a set of bones and meat and skeleton. I am more than the mistakes I made. I am more than regrets I have.

I tell myself that every atom of me is made of the explosion of stars and constellation that contains bright lights and colors that will make people stop and stare. I tell myself that I have a universe inside my body that conspires to make things great when the time is perfect.

I tell myself that,
I am more than what I am.
I am a universe filled with galaxies, planets, blazing comets, and black holes

So I promise myself that
I won't settle for less.