what is my life

Remember my reading challenge I made earlier this year? I challenged myself to read 60 books this year and guess how many books have I read?

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17! Seventeen out of sixty!! WOW, Salma you sure do a very great job at reading! I am in awe, guys. I read so fast it's amazinG. 17 books in 5 months? Perfect.

You know what else is perfect? My sarcasm.

Really, 17 books in 5 months? I can do way better than that. You know what's stopping me? My uni's ASSignment. Like I have to make so many papers and essays and those tasks required me reading a lot of politics books and other not-so-interesting books. And that keeps me away from my oh-so-INTERESTING books. Damn you, uni. You keep me away from my luvly books and BED!!!

Oh by the way, I am glad to tell you guys that I had been waking up at 10.30 am for 2 days in a row<3 (I know it's not important but you guys have no idea how happy I am)

Well, we were talking about my reading challenge before and yeah I don't really think I could complete my own challenge. I thought it would be possible to finish all those books but now, I don't think so. I'd be happy if I could finish like 50 books this year. But I am even pessimist in reaching 50 and OH LET ME TELL YOU THAT I ONLY HAVE 3 WEEKS HOLIDAY THIS SEMESTER AND IT'S BECAUSE I JOINED THIS COMMITTEE THAT REQUIRES ME TO STAY LONGER THAN OTHER STUDENTS!!! I AM SO MAD YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND I LITERALLY FLUSHED MY 3 MONTHS HOLIDAY DOWN THE TOILET!!!!!

Punch me now.


And I am also kissing my reading challenge goodbye now :)

Ha ha ha I am such a joke. 60 books? Pfft. I haven't even visited that cute little library I talked about before.

God, I need You to stop my lecturers from giving us, Your weak little creatures, so much assignments because they keep me away from doing something I really enjoy. Make them stop being so cruel. You are the only one who can make them stop because NO ONE IS IN HIGHER POSITION THAN MY LECTURERS BUT THE GOD HIMSELF.

And to make it worse, I start to feel boring doing all the things I am doing now. Like you wake up, go to campus, do the tasks, make essays blablablablabla same old routine same old routine. I actually expect so much from life but now, this boring routine is what I get. There is no excitement, there is no "I can't wait to get up early to start the day tomorrow" feeling. It is plain boring. It's like I don't put my heart in doing the things I am doing now and I am starting to ask myself whether this is what I really want in life or not. Did I choose the wrong path or not? But well, if it's the wrong path I've chosen, I hope it still leads me to the right place. Or even another place that is more beautiful than my first dream place, which I still don't know where.

But I guess it's normal to feel like this. I know so many people out there who think that the life they're living right now is not what they really want but the world demands them to keep going so they keep going. They put aside the things they like and do something more rational so that they could make a living out of it. I always think that the older you get, the boring life gets. The world will be less interesting.



Wow this post is basically about me venting my problems and complaining at how my life is right now. Oh well. Bye.