I THOUGHT I DIDN'T CARE ANYMORE I THOUGHT I HAD LET GO OF EVERYTHING I THOUGHT EVERYTHING BACK THEN WILL STAY IN THE PAST BECAUSE IT'S WHERE THEY BELONG BUT NO ACKWLSASFKGLFLELCMCL
I was so bored and I had nothing to do (even tho I have a final exam tomorrow and I should be studying, but no, I decided that I had nothing to do) so I was only playing around with my phone and then I started to stalk someone or maybe 2 people. But well it doesn't matter. What matter is what I found when I stalked those 2 people. It's just so funny and frustrating when you thought that you didn't give a damn anymore and then you saw a flash from the past and suddenly you remembered everything he did to her, to you and you just like ouch. It was what happened to me when I stalked them. That's the thing about stalking, I guess. The more you dig, the sadder you get. But I wasn't sad, I swear to God I was not. It just... idk? I was mad at them but I have no right to be mad so it's so frustrating. And I was hurt too, not that kind of "you hurt my heart and now I am left with a broken heart" hurt but it was more like "what the fuck I hate you" kind of hurt. Do I make any sense? Well I don't know but it's hard to explain UUUGHHHH
And now I hate myself for stalking them in the first place and found everything I didn't want to know.
THE PHRASE CURIOUSITY KILLS THE CAT COULDN'T BE MORE RIGHT THAN IT ALREADY IS.
UUUGGGHHH I WANT TO BANG MY HEAD ON THE WALL OR BREAK A TABLE MY GOD SLELFLSLSLLQRUVKSMALWOFICKKSKWIWK
