hail and farewell

Have you ever felt your heart aches in the mention of someone's name? The mention of your old bestfriend's name?
I have.

It aches not because I'm sad or anything. It just... I don't know. It stings to remember all those time we had during middle school. I still remember how close we were before. I remember all those sleepovers, lunches, whisperings, movies, laughters and tears that we shared.

Never in million years have I thought that we would end like this. We're practically strangers now. It's funny how we went from talking everyday to only saying 'happy bday' twice a year. It's funny how I used to know everything about you and now I don't even know your current boyfriend, and I bet you don't know that I have one too. It's funny how we promised each other to always be bestfriends and look at us now. It stings. It really does.

I don't know what happened. What the hell happened? We just suddenly drifted away and you changed. You became the girl you promise you wouldn't and I guess we're just too different now. You have your new friends and I still have our old friends. The ones you left behind. And no, we didn't really talk about you anymore.

And maybe you're the reason why I don't trust people so easily anymore. You were the one who told me that people come and go and you proved me right. But I never hate you for leaving because I realize maybe what you are right now is what you want to be.

No matter what happens next, I wish you love and I wish you luck. I hope your life will turn out the way you want it to be and I hope you'd find someone who loves you so dearly because I know that you always hurt the ones who love you and love the ones who hurt you.